aaron shoots- BANG. you're dead.

Friday, July 27, 2007

I think that I'm quite tied down with things. What things? Too many. I think of too many things and for once I think I need to push them all away for a few seconds. There's just too many things on hand waiting for my determination for completion.

Is it like everyone tell me so? Will I get the reciprocate like everyone said so? From my point of view, I doubt it's that way. This for the least I'm being pessimistic. I guess it's just that I don't want to accept defeat therefore I'm waiting.

I've seen myself in bad times every single time. Maybe this is why I'm afraid of the defeat. Maybe this is why I'm pessimistic towards such issues. I guess this is something nobody can help. I have to overcome this long gone defeat myself. I sometimes just hope that you can give me this 100% assurance from you. And maybe it can give me some comfort and might overcome this fear of mine.

Ciaoz

8:29 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Am I the one? Are you the one? I'm afraid. In fact, very afraid. But what am I afraid of? I'm not sure too. But I don't care anymore I'm doing it. The life changing answer I'm gonna get from you soon, very soon. My intentions are too clear now to escape it. MY CONFIDENCE! I'M GONNA ACHIEVE THIS!

10:41 PM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Today two different people made my heart split into two. Each half a different feeling.

I was very glad to see one of them. A girl I really like. She doesn't know about that yet but she sure will soon. Her presence today was very encouraging for me. The look of her tells me that god I'm saved.

On the contrary, another girl made me suffer. Her acts alone made me feel so difficult through the hours today. She's reverting to her old self. Her not-so-good old self. The one that always lives in her own princess world. The one that always lives in a world that everything always have to go alongside with her. The one that always cries at the slightest thing. The one that hasn't grown up.

I've seen it. And I'm quite tired of those nonsense now I can't take it anymore. I just don't want to take it anymore. I don't bother about them anymore I can't live through it twice. I never like it neither did anyone.

Or maybe I was wrong. Was I? Someone tell me. I just don't feel right. Someone proof me wrong. Blah...Couldn't care less now. Just don't show all those crap to me now. I've changed and you better keep those old self as memories. Just a piece of advice.

Move on.

12:46 AM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Hello! I'm here to update a little about my interesting life. I've yet again come to another phase of my life. I've joined SP Rovers this year in my poly year2. So far I've attended quite a number of their events. So far I feel that they are improving a little on every subsequent events that comes along. Which is good!

So let me update what has happened on Tuesday and Thursday night for me. Altogether I'd say it's a very tiring night for me on both nights. I had Physical Training(PT) sessions together with the Rovers. Things was going good for the first night as the number of people coming for PT is unforeseen! The more the people, the better the PT. It always works like this.

Well on the second night which is today, it wasn't very fantastic. As a number of Ex-cos did not turn up for the PT itself and I thought that wasn't a very good attitude to begin with. Everyone is aware of the shortage of recruitment yet people already attached to the club did not turn up for their own events. Everyone got their own commitment, fine. But when one was to take up the Ex-co role, they should be well aware of how their commitment should be placed.

Well no angst here but just my rants. Maybe we are all kids after all haha =)

11:44 PM