Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Nowadays I've got so many things in my head to worry and fret on. I just can't simply put them down. I feel so vulnerable this few days. Just a simple knock and I'm almost done for. It just feels like I failed in so many things. And worse off, they all came all in one shot. What can I do? All I could do was to breakdown and stare into blank. Memories, words, pictures all came flashing back so fast I had no chance to grasp hold of them. It was like as though the running tap is turned on full blast.
Life is so unpredictable. At one point you could be laughing like a hyena yet another point in time you could be crying like nobody's business. At one point life could be so extraordinary and meaningful yet another point in time life could be so boring.
And it's so not fucking cool when I'm trying so hard to push everything out of my head when my mum ain't helping by fucking nagging at me. I need my fucking time alone.
Not inspired. Not motivated. Just stupid shits. Suffering. Tough choices.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Sometimes something goes wrong in your life and you're caught totally unprepared for it you fall so bad it takes awhile for you to stand again. Sometimes you make a mistake and unwilling to forgive yourself you make your life miserable by playing that event in your mind repeatedly.
Those are the times you wished you could have gone back time to mend it. To make everything alright. To make sufferings to happiness. To make yourself happy once again. But all of a sudden a huge *SNAP* hits you so hard you realise you are still in reality. You have to continue living. Life still goes on. Then you start blaming yourself all over again. Or you just simply blame on others and sulk. Are you like this? Why blame? Why not forgive and forget?
Mistakes are not mistakes until made twice. Learn from them. Put learning a lifelong activity. Keep an optimistic mind. Learn with an optimistic mind. Share with an optimistic mind.
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Today is 5th Jan 2008. I'm late for posting my 2008 resolutions. Guess I've been procrastinating. But today I attended a course conducted by Martin Tang, CEO of CCI. The course namely is MMOW, mirror mirror on the wall. Anyway this is not the fairytale mirror mirror on the wall thing. This is logical.
Looking at the mirror and you see yourself standing in there. The many years of growing up and growing old. What you see is just physical. What the course is about is to "see" our inner self.
Our inner self can refer to attitude and character. In order to achieve anything, we must first have a positive mindset. A positive mindset can be referred to having a positive attitude. A positive character will come about with a positive attitude. So as you can see it's a cycle in this we do. If there's no positive mindset to certain things you do in life, a negative attitude and character will come about. Like our dear Martin kept mentioning about the cause and effect. A bad cause will lead to a bad effect. A good cause will lead to a good effect.
Basically he shared his knowledge to us on how to manage time effectively. With that he (personally I feel) helped me did my goal setting. Now that I have my goals for 2008, I'm more directed in what I want to achieve by end of this year. Hereby I shall list them down on my blog:
1. Save up $1000.
2. Run 2.4km in less than 9min 30secs.
3. Complete my first marathon run.
4. Complete 21km in less than 2hours.
5. Achieve GPA of 3 and above.
6. Have a simple meal once every month with Dad, Mum and Bro all present.
