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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Hi world. Been sometime I clean up the dust on this blog. Anyway I can only describe how I feel in one sentence. I'm all the way down at rock bottom =/

I'm sick now and facing lots of stress that I might have created it on my own. It's tough to be me now. All I need now is a listening ear. Who would lend me that listening ear? How can anyone understand how I feel now.

Sometimes the strongest can be the weakest. I guess I'm just deprived =/
Save myself.

11:39 AM

Monday, June 02, 2008

Saturday after the meeting which was very emotional for me I went off with my bro to North View Primary School to helped out with building a campfire pit. My bro only told me he was going there only after meeting. I knew it'd clear my thoughts there.

So I went there to do what I like to do. To set up a campfire pit while teaching some sec2s on how to build a campfire pit on what was essential. I enjoyed myself all the way from building a campfire pit to the ending of the campfire. I enjoyed every moment. I'm very thankful for the cheerios that saw that I'm troubled and asked me about it. Especially Carolyn, I sincerely appreciate how nice she was. She saw that I seem troubled, was typing a letter. Knowing that she is busy with the program she still took the time to sit down and offered a listening ear. I might have disgust some people on the fact that I'd like to be alone for awhile and tell those people that I'll be ok don't worry but she really showed that she care. Thanks Carolyn.

On the point that I felt like I had little or no friends, Carolyn tried to pull me together. I know that I have friends but it's just that I don't know how or who to approach. Who would listen to my complains? Who would listen to my woes?

Maybe it all was my fault. But do I deserve this? Maybe I do deserve this. But it feels like nobody is standing with me. I feel like an outcast or something. We all talk about the friendship and work thing, the line between. If you ask me, I'd say it wasn't me that crossed the line. Maybe I did but not as much as the rest did.

I'm talking to Avanna now on msn. She just reminds me of what I still remember after a couple of years. "If you think that life is not interesting then it won't be, but if you think that life is interesting then it's interesting."

5:15 PM