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Thursday, September 10, 2009

Wow. My blog is dead since I enlisted. I just had my Passing Out Ceremony (POC) on Monday. Time flies since I enlisted. I made a bunch of good buddies in the 7week BMT. I dare say we are the most bonded and best Section!

Through this time I shed sweat and tears. Sweat in camp, tears at home. There are just things that I can't run away from. Apparently on all book outs I always spend one whole day with my girlfriend, while the other I try to make up by staying home. Sometimes I don't go home on one of the book out days, staying over with my girlfriend. That left my family unhappy with me. I don't understand. Especially when my brother let out his burst of anger on me.

He being my brother had received education didn't understand me. I agree that I should be home on book out days, I shouldn't stay over. Maybe it's my fault for staying over. But by the time I book out it's either it's late afternoon or past evening. The fact that we just got together, we would want to be together when there's a chance. I would definitely want to see her straight after my book out. So at times I'd stay over at her place or stay out late.

I don't understand why can't I stay over at her place. Not trying to say I want to or must. I mean my family should help me save money too? Stay over don't have to cab home. Screw the stay over. Apparently on past quarrels or talks with my family is that they wouldn't like the idea of me staying over with her. Why? Because we just started our relationship. This is bullshit. Maybe because I'm young. Screw the young thing. I'm still a small kid in my family's eyes. I'm tired of the proving thing. What do I need to do to prove? When I start working lor. Screw this.

I just don't understand what's wrong with all this. Not as if I don't stay home at all. I do try to make an effort to spend time with my family. I really don't understand. I don't like the idea that I'm stuck in this teenager treatment. Whenever I'm out I'm playing. Ya can't I play? Then what should I do? Stay at home and rot? Must I also be doing something that benefits my future? Let's stop thinking things so far ahead sometimes and look at what's before you.

I still don't understand. Hai.

6:05 PM